Goodbye Augustus Waters

One afternoon Hazel received a call and when she expected the worse but it was Augustus and he sounded fine which was weird since his condition was not the best. He asked Hazel to go to the support group place which was beside a church and to prepare an eulogy for him. When she arrived Isaac and Augustus were there and they both read their eulogy and left. Eight days later at 3:30 am Hazel received a call and the moment she picked up she knew. Augustus mom was sobbing through the phone and Hazel started crying. At the funeral she noticed someone familiar and when she took a closer look is was none other than Peter Van Houten. She was pissed at him and even though he tried to talk to her she refused and left. One day later she talked to Isaac and he said he was preparing something for her and even though she asked his parents if he left something or if he was working on something his parents said he was too sick to even sick so they think he didn't even wrote anything. Hazel searched and then she realised that maybe he had sent it to Van Houten and that's why he had gone to they funeral in the first place.She e-mailed his former assistance, Lidewij Vligenthart, (Since she quit the day Augustus and Hazel went to visit Peter)  for help and she searched in his e/mails and when she finally found it she told Hazel she was going to force Peter to read it. Few days past and she finally answerd, she said that even though Van Houten refused to read it at first he read it and he only said that it didn't need any changes and Lidewij sent her pictures on the document. They were 4 pages   of a eulogy for Hazel.

WHEN AUGUSTUS DIED.

" You gave me a forever within the numbered days, and i'm grateful" (Green, 260)

     This is from the pre funeral from Hazel's eulogy to Augustus. The quote is one of my favourite on the whole book because their relationship was not based on time even though they didn't had all the time in the world they still managed to make it seem like forever and for them to have a forever based on feelings and not time it's so meaningful to the reader and to the characters.

"I love you present tense" (Green, 270)

    This quote is from the funeral when Hazel gets close to the coffin and said this. I love the quote because even though he is not alive anymore she still loves him and i think she will love him until she  dies because they created so many memories than most couples can create on a life time and their love went from 0 to a hundred in no time.

    I absolutely loved the book, one of the main reasons was because the love story was not super cheesy and it was real. The fact that Augustus died it was heartbreaking but if it didn't happened the book would have been too much fantasy and i liked how it ended. Now that i have finish reading this book i have officially finished all John Green's books: Paper Towns, Will Grayson Will Grayson, An Abundance of Katherines, Looking for Alaska and The Fault in Our Stars.

Bad News

     When the two of them walked away from the house behind them came Lidewij apologising about the author's behaviour and invited them to the Anne's Frank house, once they arrived it was a long way up since it was difficult for Hazel to climb the stairs and ladders with her tank. Once they arrived to the top Hazel acknowledge a lot of thing about her life and she and Augustus kissed. Hazel was still sad about Peter not giving her the answers she wanted so Augustus promised her that he would personally write an epilogue just for her. The last day after breakfast Augustus wanted to say something to Hazel so they went for a walk. When Hazel realised something was up she asked Augustus and the answer was not good. He said that while she was at the hospital before Amsterdam when her lungs had filled with water he had felt pain and he went for a check and they found tumors all over his body and it was impossible to stop them. After that they cried and then they went back home. After that she went constantly almost every day to check on Augustus who was now in a wheel chair, and they talked and Isaac was there too and most of the time they were with him. One night she got a call at 3 in the morning and she though the worse but when she picked up it was Gus, he was crying he said he was at a Gas station but something was wrong with the G tube and he needed Hazel to go. When Hazel arrived all freaked out she found Augustus in his car crying and he throw up and he was a mess but he begged Hazel not to call 911 nor his parents and asked her to check the G tube area and chat what was wrong and she found that the tube was infected and she couldn't solve that, she asked Gus why the hell he was in a gas station at 3 in the morning and he said he wanted to buy a pack of cigarets since he lost the pack in hospital. Gus begged Hazel not to call 911 or his parents but since Hazel was so scared she did called them. Gus stayed a few days in the hospital and and he returned home. His sisters where in the house waiting for him and they stayed with him. Hazel went as often as she could to visit him.

WHEN WE THOUGHT AUGUSTUS WAS ABOUT TO DIE.

 " Some infinities are bigger than other infinities." (Green, 233)

     This quote is from one of the nights that Augustus was pretty bad in the hospital and Hazel went to visit but they didn't let her in so she stayed in the waiting room and reflect on her relationship with Gus. She is talking about how they're little infinite is about to end and how some infinities are bigger than other like for example there are infinite numbers between 1.0 and 2.0 like 1.1, 1.2 1.3 etc. but there is a bigger infinite of numbers between 1.0 and 3.0.

 "Nostalgia is a side effect of cancer." (Green, 236)

   One of the days Augustus stopped by Hazel's house they sat on the backyard and witness the empty space where the old swing set was and he said he felt nostalgic about it and Hazel replied with this quote which made me feel sad because she use to say many things were a side effect of cancer at the beginning of the book but when they went to Amsterdam like all of those problems went away but now that they are back those problems are back and it made me feel sad for both of them.

      I am loving the book so far and one of the reasons about that it that there are excellent quotes in almost every page and this quotes are so remarkable to the book that when i read them i instantly remember them in the movie and i didn't realise how was the movie so similar to the book. Most movies based on books they change the story and add things or take away things but i have realised that with books by John Green that's not the case this book and the movie are really similar and the best parts are represented perfectly one the movie and the quotes that make the story unique are also there. I read Paper Towns by John Green before the movie and when i saw the movie the same happened except i think that they made a better job representing The Fault in Our Stars than Paper Towns in the movie.

Amsterdam

     When Hazel received the e-mail she called Augustus immediately and told him the good news, and Hazel and her family prepared for the big trip. On the plane Augustus told Hazel that he loves her and that there is nothing she can do about it. Once they arrived Augustus and Hazel went to dinner to a fancy restaurant and Peter Van Houten paid for it. The next morning they were supposed to meet Van Houten and when they arrived it was not what they expected. When the man opened the door he was drunk and shut the door in their face. Hazel and Augustus were shocked but eventually his assistance , Lidewij Vligenthart let them in. When Hazel started asking Van Houten the questions he tried to change the subject and started talking over them. Finally Hazel exploded when Peter offended her saying something about her illness, she screamed and stormed out.

EVERYONE WHEN PETER VAN HOUTEN SAID OFFENSIVE THINGS
TO HAZEL.

" Nights like this one didn't come along often, and I wanted to remember it" (Green, 165)

     The quote if from when they were at dinner and the waiter asked if they wanted some more champagne and she said no because she didn't want to be drunk. I liked the quote because even though she has terminal cancer and she fully accepts it she still has good nights like that one and she still believes that more nights like this one will come along and she has hope.

" I could not tell if Peter Van Houten was kidding." (Green,188)

     This quote is from when Hazel was trying to ask serious questions but Peter Van Houten kept avoiding them in such mean way. The author put this quote because he wanted to let the reader know how disappointed Hazel was with her encounter with who she though was the world's most intelligent, honest and understanding person. In the quote we clearly see that Hazel was in denial of what had turned from the best day of her life to the worst.

      I am really enjoying the book it is exciting to see how they're romance continues and how they get to know parts of each other no one knew. I like John Green book's specially because they tell you things without even telling you directly. I love the way the author makes you learn new personality traits about the characters without the need of listing them or actually telling you. The book so far is great, the speed is perfect and the characters are alive which makes the tory ten times better.

Okay

    After the Isaac breakdown in Augustus house Hazel went home and waited for Augustus to call her. One night he called during dinner and when Hazel answered she found out that Augustus had sent an e-mail to Peter Van Houten's assistant and she replied so he read it out to her and she couldn't believe it. Hazel eventually sent an e-mail herself asking for some answers. After some days he texted her saying that Isaac had the surgery and that he will be out in a few days. Hazel went to visit Isaac and he talked about how his breakup with Monica matters more than he being blind and then she left. Four days past after Hazel received a response from Peter and the e-mail said that he couldn't answers via e-mail nor de phone, the only way he would get the answers was in person. The only problem with that was that he lived in Amsterdam. Hazel told Augustus the news and he asked her if she still had her Wish from The Genie Foundation but she had used it when she was 13 to go to Disney World. The next day Hazel went to the market with her parent and when she got home Augustus was waiting in the doorstep with some orange flowers, he asked her if she wanted to go to a picnic and she agreed. In the picnic Augustus revealed the hole reason he took her to a picnic, he was going to share his Wish with Hazel since he hadn't use his. He wanted to go to Amsterdam with her and The Genie Foundation was going to make sure Hazel had all the supplies to be safe. She told her mom and she was going to talk to Dr. Maria to make sure it was ok to take Hazel. Days past and one night Hazel was in pain so she screamed and her parents rushed her to the hospital, luckily the tumor hadn't grown and there were no new tumors but her lungs were filled with liquid. She was fine after that but in the next Cancer Team Meeting there was a debate whether or not she was going and after a few days she received a e-mail from Van Houten assistance confirming she will arrive the 4th of May.

WHEN WE KNEW HAZEL WAS GOING TO AMSTERDAM.

                                                                                         

                                                                                     "Maybe okay will be our always" (Green,73)


  This quote is from when Augustus and Hazel were talking on the phone and before hanging up the kept saying "okay" and Monica and Isaac kept saying "always" every time they saw each other and it was the thing Isaac missed the most. So this quote said by Augustus means a lot to the story to the couple since it's a word repeated over and over and it is so powerful in a way i can't explain it's like their thing.

“I'm like. Like. I'm like a grenade, Mom. I'm a grenade and at some point I'm going to blow up and I would like to minimize the casualties, okay?” (Green, 99)

     The quote stand up to me because as Hazel said this to her parents the author made sure we felt connected to Hazel and feel bad because she really thinks that the people she builds relationships are gonna get hurt when she dies and she feels responsible for saving those people from suffering when she is gone. 

     The book is amazing so far there are not so many books that I'm so hooked up to keep reading even though i already got to my goal, but this one is like that. I fell in love with the characters and even though i have seen the movie while i red it i try to forget about the movie and the actors because in the book there is so much more detail, scenes, and characters that aren't in the movie. For example in the book Hazel has a friend named Kaitlyn and the scene of the hospital were Hazel goes to see Isaac isn't in the movie either and the book like always is way better. The book is awesome I love it like most of all John Green's books.

An Imperial Affliction

     The Fault in Our Stars is a book written by John Green about a 16 year old girl who suffers from terminal lung cancer named Hazel Grace Lancaster. She lives with her parents which suggest she is depressed since she doesn't live the house and read the same book over and over again, An Imperial Affliction. Her doctor suggested her to go to a support group where she met Isaac a guy with eye cancer who had a glass eye and a real one but it will be eventually removed in surgery he also had a girlfriend named Monica, she also meets Augustus Waters a 18 year old who lost part of his leg due to his osteosarcoma and have a prosthetic instead. In the support group Augustus revealed his fear is oblivion, he fears he would not leave a mark. Eventually Augustus and Hazel became friends and they made a deal to read each other's favourite book which Hazel chose , An Imperial Affliction, and he picked ,The Price of Dawn. An Imperial Affliction was a book written by Peter Van Houten about a girl with cancer and Hazel loved the book because it didn't sugar coded was cancer is really like, but the book ended in the middle of a sentence and that was so frustrating but also it represented that life ends just like that. One day she got a call from Augustus saying that he had finished the book and he was annoyed that the book ended just like that but he also asked Hazel if she can go to his place since Monica just dumped Isaac and he is having a crisis, so she went and Isaac was just devastated over the break up.

"It's a metaphor, see: You put the killing thing right between your teeth, but you don't give it the power to do its killing." (Green, 20)

    This quote is from when Augustus and Hazel are outside the support group and he put a cigarette in his mouth and Hazel says how it's gross and how she is against it when Augustus stopped her and explain that it's just a metaphor. I think that the quote explains that there are many things in the world that have the potential to kill you but if you don't give them the power to do it they can't.

"Pain demands to be felt" (Green, 57)

   This quote is from when Hazel arrives to Augustus house and Isaac is all over the place breaking stuff and Hazel makes a comment saying how she gets why he is so upset and then Augustus replies with this. This quote even though it so short it has more than one meaning behind it. First of all this is quote was taken out of the book Hazel loves so much so he quoted Peter Van Houten and thats why it has so much meaning to the reader and most of all Hazel. It also means that even though pain hurts we have to feel it in order to know how it feels to be happy.

     So far the book is really good, I have read most of John Green books and most of them star slow, he usually uses like the 3 first chapters so introduce characters and give back story but this book moves fast. I appreciate that on books because sometimes it gets boring but when it moves fast like this they give you new information along the way.  I like the story line and the characters have their own personality and it's nice to read books that show the reader traits about the characters without actually saying them. I am really excited to continue reading.

    

19 Katherine's and One Lindsey

Lindsey is confused because she is not feeling sad about the breakup with TOC and she is just accepting it. Hassan, Colin and Lindsey went to Memphis to discover the reason why Hollis has been being so weird lately and going out a lot and they found out that the factory is in bankrupt but Hollis doesn't want to fire any of the people that work at the factory so she is selling land to sustain all the jobs which is very nice of her. Lindsey had mixed feeling she was happy because her mom was doing something amazing for people of Gutshot  but she was like feeling down because she was confuse with her emotions so then she went to her secret place. She lied to Hollis telling her she was going to sleep in a friends house but Colin knew were she was so he went to the secret place and they talked about how she didn't missed TOC at all and then he told her the full Katherine timeline and he felt relief after. Then they ended up together and it was amazing. Also Hassan applied for college so Colin was proud of him. The theorem was complete so Colin tried to see how his relationship with Lindsey could turn out and it said she would dump him in the 4th day of their relationship which turn out to not be true and Colin was happy because they were still together but sad because something was wrong with the formula. He had his second eureka moment by concluding by saying that the formula was not gonna be always right because future is unpredictable.

WHEN I FINISHED THE BOOK.

     "That's why those tapes we made are going toe so great one day, because they'll stories that time has swallowed up or distorted or whatever" (Green,202)

     The quote was about the tapes they record when they do jobs for Hollis, the tapes are about the people that live in Gutshot and they ended talking about this because Colin said that it doesn't matter because everyone will die and forget you and even people like Einstein will be forgotten and that time swallows every person every achievement but the last thing that will desapear are memories.

"And the moral of the story is that you don't remember what happened. What you remember becomes what happened." (Green,208)

    When Colin finished his Katherine timeline he ended it with this statement which seems very interesting to me because it makes you really think a lot back of small things that maybe didn't actually really happened the way you remember but what you remember became what happened for you, I know it might be a little confusing but if you really think about it deeply it makes lots of sense.

      I finished the book and i did like like it is not one of my top 5 favourite but it was good. I really liked the last part of the book in which the author explains every part of the formula which was interesting because it is presented in notes and you feel like you are reading Colin's notes and it was a nice touch. The book ended good because i wanted Lindsey and Colin together but I was sad that the Hassan and Katrina thing didn't work out. I would recommend the book to people that really like math. One of my favourite thing about the whole book was at the end when he tells the hole Katherine timeline because he only talked about 3 Katherine's on the hole book and the other 16 weren't mention and they were just a number but when he talked about all of them we put a face to the number so it was amazing. Even though this book wasn't one of my favourites i still love John Green writing.

Pigs, Bees And A Fight

     The group went hunting after Lindsey taught Colin how to shoot properly. Hassan a Colin had an encounter with one of the pigs they were going to hunt and when it was about to attack them colin shot it but he didn't aim the pig he aim a tree that had bees and they were running for like 10 minuetes away from them but eventually the could run  away and when they were going back to the civilisation they recognise TOC and Katrina who was Hassan's new girlfriend kissing. Colin and Hassan approach them and TOC tried to explain but couldn't put an excuse so he just admitted that this has been going on for a while. Hassan immediately broke up with her. Colin was feeling bad for Lindsey when TOC told him that he shouldn't said anything to Lindsey or he will get hurt and when he was saying all these he started recording him. Then Lindsey, JATT and SOCT arrived with drinks and everything seemed good but then Colin couldn't handle it anymore and he played the recording of the confession and Lindsey just went away and TOC try to make her stay and grabbed her so she started screaming and JATT told TOC to let her go but he didn't so JATT went to kick him but TOC hit first and JATT was left on the floor but then Hass and Colin went to help but TOC hit first again and they were all down the Lindsey kicked TOC and he was on the floor. Lindsey went to help his friends and he whispered in "My Hero" to Colin.

WHEN TOC CHEATED

"Colin had to figure out what had gone wrong inside his brain, and fix it. He returned to the central question : how could he have completely forgotten dumping her?" (Green, 166)

     Colin wasn't working on the theorem that much in this part of the book but in the small time that he was we learned a gigantic thing from Colin's past that he even forgot. He had dumped K3 and he didn't remember, when he was working on the theorem it worked for 18 katherines except for K3 and so then he didn't remember how it ended so then he called her and she told him that he was the one who dumped her. This quote really makes me think that he has the mentality that he is the dumpee but maybe he is not always the dumpee like right know. He used to believe he was 100% dumpee which is not longer true.

"She's my friend. And if I were in her position, I'd expect her to tell me" (Green,174)

     The quote is from when TOC told them to keep their mouths shut or they will regret it. I like how Colin cares about Lindsey and he looks at her as a friend but I do think that part of the reason why he showed Lindsey the recording was because he is falling for her and he wanted to end their relationship although it was also because he wanted to make the right thing and the best part was that he didn't even care that TOC was going to hit him he just wanted to do the right thing.

     The book is fantastic it has every part of a John Green book that I love it has action, drama and love. It was weird at first that the book wasn't read in the point of view of the main character but now I am starting to like it. In this part of the book the theorem wasn't really talked about excepted for that one part so it makes me a little bit worried since the book is so close to an end and i just want to get a solid formula that works and that proves Colin's theory. I am excited to see what happens between Lindsey and Colin after this and if they will be together at the end or not i would absolutely love that.